::Maintenance::

December 27, 2022

I am always relieved when October-December comes to a close, because the beginning of a reboot and restart approaches. I do not make new year resolutions, I simply reflect, and make personal plans for myself and my child. Life has a mind of its own....sometimes in the most inopportune ways. Howbeit, change, often opens doors to entering into Gods perfect will. Even if at first, that change is uncomfortable. I am no stranger to those variations. Likewise, receiving Blessings from God, is not foreign to me. A new year provides opportunity, but also a different awareness. Aging. Not simply because I am getting older.......factually speaking, we all are; but a renewed focus on how I would like to apply my wisdom, what I should stand for and bow out of, who I should share with and what bridges require detonation, for the sake of my peace. If any. I respect the proper uses for explosives (figuratively speaking). That is for another blog post.

The more comfortable I become in my own skin, the more confident I grow in Christ, the more I come to terms with my past; the broken, toxic and abusive relationships that I have had, and how they have shaped me, even to this day......the less time I have for nonsense. I have already been down that road of foolishness, ignorance, selfishness, *silence in times of needing to speak, naiveness, and I have no desire to be stuck on those paths again, for the remaining years of my youth. Some adults fear leaving the slums of unconsciousness, believing that age appropriate awareness will age them more quickly. When in reality, wisdom gives us longevity in life. Not the other way around. A person behaving like they are in the dark, makes one look like an aged imbecile. There is no nicer way to word that last sentence. Rather, I choose not to.

I would like to replace the word resolution with the word, maintenance. I want to continue to maintain the wisdom and knowledge that I am growing into. I want to maintain my dreams and creative ideas. I want to maintain my voice. I want to maintain my authenticity. I want to maintain my stances in life, and not hide away, when I am treading through boldness and strength. I want to maintain the fire in my mouth, my hands and my feet. I want to maintain my faith and trust in Jesus. Without Him, my existence is for nought.

2 Corinthians 5:17

“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”

Raven